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Outside yourself

One day I hope you look outside yourself
seeing yourself as a help
Instead of one needing of help
seeing yourself as a servant
Instead of one to be served
No longer seeing yourself as the victim each time,
A victim that life has wronged
without considering in what way the other has been wronged
To you the measure of what extent they have been wronged  may be little
but don’t use your own wrong as a measure for another’s

You use anyone that comes your way
to soothe you fleshly needs and fleeting emotions;
Unsure care and affection
I hope you remember that that person is human too
Just as weak and fragile
no  matter how strong they appear
deserving of the kind of love you think you deserve
and most undeserving of your uncertainty and deceit

May you remember that we are different
and selflessly be patient to learn the differences
If you expect more please give more
If they fall short please forgive and embrace
You fall short so many times
You don’t walk in a straight line
while hiding things you should share freely and truly along the way
If you expect your sorries to be accepted each time
then may you gain sense to accept another’s sorry
when you are given

Have compassion mixed with all that wisdom you think you have
less it be seen as foolish
as what need is it
To be “all” knowing and understanding in words
but shallow in heart and application
your depth is no deeper than a puddle at the road side
be gone with your heavy head and risen shoulders!!


written months back

Full Mind

I would be leaving soon and I wouldn’t see him till the next holiday
so I’d let him touch me and let our bodies come close
I’d shot out every thought that may want to stop me
but no, there is no thought arising
what’s on my mind
Is what is about to take place
How my body feels and soul yearns for this

I let everything happen
It’s been an escalation of closeness
with those who have shown their interest
and I seem to like
Be careful if you think you stand , less you fall
but here i stand in the midst of my emotions

My strength failing each time
No one has ever come this close
Never again would anyone come this close
If I must abandon you all together with the rest
to honour Him, so be it
You were fast to dive in
You did not feel as bad as I did
I feel you treated me unkindly
Preserve my purity
Lead I said !!

No not that way I’m going
Lead me away
Lead me to truth
Filthiness is a state of mind
and also a state of heart
then a state of the body
Please change my state

Sorry, If my thought is all over the place
that’s where my thoughts have gone
they don’t seat down
It rests for a minute
Then off it goes !!
my mind is packed

 * Originally written months back *

What’s on your mind

The day you won a medal
The day you loved so deeply
The time you gained a scholarship
The time you trusted your love and heart to someone
The time you laid in bed with he/she who wasn’t your husband/wife
the time you gave yourself to lust and minutes pleasure
When you walked away from a parasitic friendship
and embraced that beneficial one
When you sang that song that got you a standing ovation
What’s on your mind?
Past glories, failures and mistakes

you are reading a book
The story seems so real
the characters come alive in your mind
Cooking a meal
Havig a conversation at the coffee shop
Listening to him profess his love to you
Saying a prayer and trusting for today
Enjoying a good meal with the girls
Laughing and chatting away
Enjoying the scenery of the sky and
all the flowers that bloom
What’s on your mind?
Your present , it’s reality and beauty

When you’d get married
Who you would get married to
Would he take me with all my secrets and past
Would he see me as a lady fighting
Would he enter the battle field with me
No, not fight me
but fight with me to preserve my soul

Where would you end up settling down
Would you be famous
Would you end up doing all the things I always wanted to
How many kids would you have ?
My beautiful princes and princesses
Seating around me

Listening to their mum tell them of life’s lessons
Ones she wished she did not learn that way
and the ones she is thankful for
Concluding each story with gratitude
for all lessons learnt because my kids
would know to avoid them in their lives

Would I quit my job and travel the world
Who would be part of my friend circle
Would I end up on the mission field
Would my soul find rest
Would my feet stand still and enjoy the moment
or would it wonder off seeking for new adventures
What’s on your mind?
Future hopes, prayers and dreams

What’s On your mind?
Life as we know it
All sorts of thoughts
but the future thought seem to be more
but one resolve is ,
God is sovereign!!

lights ,camera,Action

if my mind were a movie you would love it ;
well if it were all about you ,you may love it.
if it were a movie you may fast forward it with eagerness to see the end;
or  fast forward it because you may not like the scenes .
if it were a movie you may replay or rewind it to recapture the moments.
I wish it was so ,well partly;
But sorry my mind is not a movie.
Most scenes this mouth can’t utter just yet,
Most acts these hands can’t pen down just yet.
However,i am glad it is not a movie because there are scenes that should not be there  ;
Scenes being worked on by the Editor-in-Chief and the inspired manual .
 if it were a movie, it may inspire many or step on many toes 
or may be do both.
But my mind isn’t a movie,
so until i put into words what is in my mind ,
you’d never know ;
until i play out the scenes in reality ,
you would keep guessing.