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No butterflies

The nectar has been sucked out 
and the flowers are left with no taste 
or reason to be wanted or perched on
It’s nourishment still there and fragrance as strong as ever 
but it’s juices has been drained 
now she is left thinking 
wondering if she was flocked around for what she could offer 
that in that particular season
that was the only flower that produced sweet and smooth nectar 
and how much satisfaction they got 
 now it is all gone she is left alone
 
Loved by none only by passing shadows 
Wondering when her petals would fall
or someone would love her so much 
without a care in the world if she satisfies or not 
but would be please with fragrance she gives 
even to strangers passing 
She isn’t ashamed to flourish
Seeing the wondering hearts of why she has been left all this while 

Once caterpillars assembled round her 
but once they break out they fly away 
or a few break out and stay for a little while 
as her nectar is soothing and nourishing just for the time being
no fussy feeling left in her stomach days after 
or blushing petals at their presence 
just thought of what could have been 

Wondering If he was interested in something more
Whether she lost the reason he stayed or not 
but yet content with the person she is
and waiting till the next season
when the nectar is restored 
and is much more sweeter than before 
but the flower doesn’t point accusing fingers so much
he isn’t a botanist and doesn’t understand 
He doesn’t understand the times and the seasons
and isn’t acquainted with the lasting beauty in change and growing together 

That Autumn feeling

When a few leaves lose their original colour
but not its beauty
and irrespective of its beauty,
the trees have no choice than to shed them
Doing so in preparation for the cold winter

The leaves don’t go begrudgingly
they understand it’s for the good of the tree
though it would be replaced,
It knows its sacrifice would mean the trees have their seeds spread out during winter
and soon more leaves would appear
as budding starts during the lovely spring
It’s a fight for survival

It’s time to be calm and focused
To be subtle but truthful
Playful but wise
Slow to speak and fast to listen

It’s time for a balance of things
To smile till your cheeks hurt when things are different
To lose things that are beautiful but we must let go
Understand this, nothing is ever lost

To be ready to let go of the old and welcome the new
Embracing each new season as it comes
I’d stare and learn from autumn and all that happens
The changes at the beginning but the end is as beautiful as the process even more beautiful than the beginning
Nothing stays as it is and that is refreshing

Ungodly hour

It’s not the time that stinks
or the ticking of the clock that shows passion
The minute hand isn’t seductive
No particular hour is in itself ungodly
but what is done in that hour
so please feel free to call me at night time
at the time “popular known” or “popular referred” to as ungodly hour

Feel free to express your feelings towards me
but don’t ver off talking of your strong bodily emotions
or let immorality speak for you
by asking what I’m putting on In a soft deep voice
“A onesie”, I said “I bet you expected me to say something different ”
or you bluntly lying about what you have on
I never asked you did I?
We know your aim is to stare up thoughts
We know what happens when that happens
Now that hour has become ungodly to us

Ring the door bell at noon
You remembered to visit a friend in that hour
that’s really thoughtful
but if you have another woman over
at that same hour the next day
and you indulge in some smooches smooches
then it doesn’t matter if that was at noon
that hour to you is an ungodly hour

The early hours of the morning are the quietest
time to think and just enjoy the solitude
pick up a book
Say a prayer and read your bible
but it can be a snare
if you have wondering thoughts
thoughts of lust and immorality
that once godly hour has now become ungodly

I understand the darkest hour is when the wolves come out
Physically and from our souls
and the brighter hours is when most become angels
acting like nothing ever happened
after we acted a fool after letting ourselves go to a “few drinks”
but the darkness of the hour or the brightness of the hour
Is never the qualifying factor

Don’t discriminate against the hours
All hours are beautiful
very crucial if i must add
but the qualifying factor of the hour
Isn’t 1pm in the afternoon or 1 am in the morning
but the activities that go on within those hours
You are the qualifying factor in each hour
No ungodly hours just humans being ungodly in that hour

“What Ifs” and “But God”

These are moments we wonder how life goes
Where life goes and why it goes the way it does
when decisions are made
The outcomes leading to thankfulness or
a few regrets
When circumstances grace us with our expectations
and a few pleasant or unpleasant surprises

These are the times when our hearts , thoughts and lips
are filled with questions
Mainly what ifs
As we recall the past mistakes, misunderstandings, decisions,
With this questions we hope to amend the past
and predict the future

What if I had studied a different degree
What if my plans for the future fails
What if I never dated him/ her
What if i was dark or fair
What if i was as outspoken and not let people walk over me
What if tomorrow never comes

What if I get married and the marriage doesn’t go as planned
What if my friends don’t call me back
What if my whole life was a dream
What if i picked her call, may be she wouldn’t have gone and gotten killed
What if I trust my heart to someone that does not take care of it

Our minds filled with questions that of blame, doubt and fear
What if my kids don’t love me the way i love my parents
What if i got married to someone different
What ifs may not be negative but could be one that stirs up gratitude

One major “what if “that stirs a joyous answer ,
What if Christ did not save a wretch like me
What if I was left to myself in this sinful world without a redeemer
and the answer not far fetched
But God in His wisdom and mercy came to redeem me
I f i had been the only one He would have come anyways

So let’s set aside the “what ifs” that stir up doubt
and cling unto the But God
But God in His mercy would supply all my needs
But God is my helper
But God meant everything for good that which they meant for evil
But God is slow to anger and abounding in love

The “what ifs” stirs up anxiety
The “but God” stirs us hope and rest in God’s sovereignty

When the circle gets smaller

Our differences are too big
We have different believes
We aren’t the same height
We are at different levels financially,
spiritually an mentally
pride has gotten in the way

We are from different states and countries
You don’t trust that I’d never say an evil word behind your back
You dint trust that I’m praying for you
You don’t trust that I’d cry with you
I am married with a family to call my own
You are single and living as you like
or so it seems

We’ve gone to different parts of the world
We’ve grown to have different interests
Our hearts are chasing after different things
Our goals are reaching different nets
Our echoes of need traveling at different distances

You have fallen ill
So many medications and prescriptions by your side  stool
Frail and shrivel we have become
Time is no longer on our side
but we are clenching to every minute
and  any minute from now ,
We’d be unplugged
Returning to what eternity holds for us

These are when the circle gets smaller
It started with 10 of us at the play ground in our neighbourhood
A big circumference we had
then we became 7 at nursery,
6 at primary school, 5 at boarding school
4 at university, 4 at our various careers
fighting our differences fiercely
and distance with virtual messaging
now in the advanced world,
we lost one to age,
Now 3, we became a triangle

Heart’s rhythm

When you are absent my heart beats normal
One two one two
75 beats per minute
I’m at rest knowing I’m loved
It’s at rest because we aren’t speaking
but we are on good terms

Then you decide to message me,
“hey babe , missing you”
then it starts racing softly
as it embraces the thought that she’s being missed
One one two one

I am asleep and then the phone rings
with your specially chosen caller tune
my heart beats faster
following the beat of the ring tone
till i finally find the phone at it’s hiding place
My heart is then put to rest hearing your voice

It’s my birthday
One complain to another because you said you were busy but
You decide to show up at my door step with flowers
unsuspicious i was when i opened the door as the door bell rang
only to behold your beautiful face
By this time my heart was in my mouth
I could feel the upper chambers of my heart beating so fast
like an atrial fibrillation
as you came closer to give me a hug
and plant a kiss on my cheek

My hearts rhythm is back to normal
as we walk hand in hand to the place you had booked for dinner
then on approaching i hear, “surprise”
It was the voices of our friends and family
and then i turn to give you a friendly punch
only to see you on your knees

ONE! one! one! one
Two two two
Three One one!!
went my heart as eye see you open the box with the ring
my rhythm became pleasantly ectopic
as i began to cry before you asked,
Would you marry me ?

I can dance to each rhythm of my heart
if it were recorded
from the time we met , to the time you said i love you
many memories down the line
and now to our forever
You are my hearts rhythm

Time and Sorrow

“Time heals all wounds”, they say
but every passing day I gain fresh memories
as though the scars left by your departure were being pecked upon
reopening wounds and leaving my heart bleeding again
This time, our good friend, Dr. time, failed to heal my hurt
Instead it reminds me of the memories we once shared
and I would never get to share with you again:
So much for being a qualified doctor

It was 2.49pm I last received your call,
a Saturday afternoon we last spoke
It was a sunny one
as I remember not having on the mocha coloured sweater you got me
All seemed bright and fair:
The flowers blossomed and the birds chirped
It was the beginning of spring and the daffodils were out
I wished this spring would have been as lovely as the rest
but its loveliness was lost when you breath your last
So with every spring comes a reminder of the pain,
and at 2.49pm the sound of the phone replays in my head.

There is a time to mourn and that time has been everyday since you left
in the summer where all things bloom
and where the smiles on people faces are brighter than ever
I am embraced with the reminder of your absence
because last summer you gave me gardenia, and each time
I can smell them as if it were yesterday you gave me

It was 1.00pm during the fall your intermittent took place:
When the leaves had lost it colours
and the trees were ready to shed their leaves
It was a well selected time
since you were being laid to rest
and the leaves from the trees beautified your burial place.
I hand picked special fall flowers;
the same kind you got for me on our first date in the fall
A mixture of dahlia and camellia

Now in the cold winter nights
I wished my mind be frozen so I do not remember you.
I am still hurting much
It was 11.59pm, a minute to christmas;
the day you told me you loved me,
and gave me a heart shaped icicle you made with the snow
I remember we stood by the luculia
beautiful pink flower in your parents garden
You picked one from its stalk
and beautified my hair with it.

It has been 365 days, 22hours, 10minutes, 22 seconds and counting
Still It feels like yesterday
the clocks had no tocks but only ticks,
as time seemed to stand still when I was told the news
I felt the colours in the sky drain
and suddenly I felt as though I was in all seasons
My heart was in chaos;
we had seasons of beautiful memories with sparkles of little misunderstanding
We had 24hours to ourselves and we both shared
Now those 24hours are for me alone and with 12hours I use to relieve the times we shared by myself
I end up walking through emptiness,
with tear filled eyes

with each season that passes by I remember you
As the clock ticks and gradually regain its tock
I think of each minute we had
Time heal wounds but still I’m hurting
Our shared memories get fresh with each season and time that goes by
Hopefully I would not have to wait another year
For time to finally stich up the hole you left in my heart

 

Originally written in september 2015

Don’t Think

Don’t think of the times you argued
but don’t think of the time you smiled
the time you both spent hours talking
making promises to each other

Don’t think of how smiling to each other felt
how happy to know someone said you are worth the wait
yet was impatient to wait with you as friends
you both suddenly became strangers

Don’t think of the time you cried
or the time you both laughed so hard
for to exercise your mind in thinking is to
exhaust your heart in loneliness

Don’t think of the songs you sang to each other,
your special sign languages or
the coded good byes
the silence that only you both understood

Don’t think because to think is to wish all could come back
may be you do; ok, you do
don’t think but hope things would return to normal
as fast as you both became friends
and even faster  than you both became strangers

Don’t think of the past but hope for the future
for to hope is to gladden your heart
to make them dance with eagerness
what does the future hold?
Only God knows. Hope in Him

Seeds of Procrastination- (29/4/2015)

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There is time for everything
A time to be born and a time to die
Timely was our birth and thankfully, it was not our decision to make
we came at the  time God ordained
for if it were our choice ,many would have chosen to be born at a later time
without being certain if that time would have been perfect

No one knows the hour or the time, said Jesus the Christ, of His return
but there is a set time that He would return
not a minute late or a minute early but at the nick of time He will return
Yet we who believe He would return have ignored the work we were assigned
People say He is coming soon but when would the soon come,many might ask
So while we believe that the soon is far we plan our days believing that there is time

Time, how precious is this gift
given to us by God
How richly endowed is every individual with this treasure
but this riches of time seems tricky
How? Think of it this way
We can lose money and yet quantify how much we have left
but not with time because every passing minute and every passing day,
no one knows how much they have left
We can only hope we don’t get broke before doing what we ought  to do
All the things we deferred because we thought tomorrow would always come

Every tick of the clock, and every rising of the sun into a new day
A fresh 24 hours allowance is given to us
Yet we chose to save it and plan for the ones we may receive
Save it I said, but unfortunately we can’t save each 24hrs allowance
as it expires as the sun sets ,night falls and day breaks

We have sowed seeds of procrastination in the form of fear, anxiety and doubt
And of cause ,let us not forget our dear friend, laziness
We say we would do such and such in a minute
but that minute became an hour and that hour, 24hours
and several piles of our 24hour treasure followed suit
We became rich with lost time allowances.

We say tomorrow would come because it always does
Yes, but my dearest what if today loves you too much and refuses to let you go?
making tomorrows kindness far from your reach
What if 11.59 pm of today is so jealous and greedy that it refuses to usher you into the freshness and sweetness of 12.00am, into a new day?
Ceasing that minute.

We eagerly wait for tomorrow’s favor, kindness and showers of goodness
Yet the one within our reach we have ignored; our today’s blessing.
Oh that we sowed those seeds of procrastination into the soil of “time waits for no one”,
that way we would reap bountiful harvests of motivation and achievement but instead, we have sown those seeds into “tomorrow will always come” or “I will do it later” and soon the yield, if it has not already come,
would be harvests of regrets and wishes to gain lost times.

Youth, my dear youth, we wish to remain on earth till we are old
and if the Lord wills, we will but let us not,
let us not empty today of its treasure.

Seeds of procrastination have been sown!!
Get your hoes, shovels and matchets,
or if you be determined, use your hands
and let us bend our backs to uproot these seeds before they sprout,
and may the scars left after all is done remind us we did what had to be done in the minute it had to be done.

With the sweet words of Jesus the Christ,
“i must work the works of Him who sent me while it is day; night is coming, when no one can work
and like Moses in the book of psalms said, –teach us to number our days, that we may get a heart wisdom.
May this also become our prayer.